eagerly anticipated disappointment

Apparently tonight will be the party of the year. I’m sure mine may be good; friends, alcohol, a prettyful dress and the knowledge that I’m the owner of a brand new canon will all help. I cannot agree that the past new years eves have been the parties of the year, however I’ve had some good ones. Everyone claims new years is just a “major let down,” but I quite like it. My miniature, week long extension to the Christmas period. 2009 has been a fantastic year, I don’t think I’ve ever jam packed so much into one year. Even when the parents took me and my sister abroad every year on marvellous, magnificent holidays I still pleaded to travel the five hours across the good olde English countryside to Cornwall. Both, having spent their own childhoods chock-a-blocked into a caravan in the West country, declined my appeals. In 2009 my wish came true. Of course the idea was to learn how to surf for future travels, of course it was the weekend of the first snow in Bude for four years. Typical. Nevertheless, I have decided I will one day live in Cornwall, the most beautiful and inspiring place I've ever been to. Even if there was snow on the sand; which by the by is really, really weird (but) wonderful. 2009 was my year of travels. OMG I got to go to frigging Thailand! I got to backpack for two months of my life! I got to live on a beach, in the cliffs in a tiny shack with the most amazing view I have ever experienced. I got to share my home with a friendly 12” lizard and a water-loving snail. I got to scuba dive. I lilo surfed. I bloody well slept on ‘the beach’ beach! I shared sand particles with Leonardo DiCaprio (swoon.) 2009 was the year I once again took to education. I took to education like a duck to water. Dear God, thank-you for the creation of University. I will never regret my debt, I will never regret my choice of course, I may think about regretting my choice of Uni but I never truly will. Why? Because I have met some of the most amazing friends, I have had the most fun in the past three months and I can barely remember any of it (oh alcohol, what do you do to me!?) 2009 I finally got to watch Caleb and fellow Followill’s at Reading Festival. OK the dude truly smashed my hopes and dreams. You know how they say you should never meet your idols? Never more true than the moment the band of my dreams smashed their guitars, threw them into the audience and walked off stage, not with a wave, but showing the elusive, rock star, one finger salute. Still they were amazing and I am thankful that I have seen them, I still love them, it must be something in the water. My love and respect for many a band grew and grew; Friendly Fires were amazing, Alexisonfire did not disappoint and Florence Welch was breathtaking. Even Radiohead were good, and I’ve never liked Radiohead! 2009 was amazing. A damn good year! A year of irresponsible behaviour (maybe my last year of irresponsible behaviour.) Certainly the last of my teenage years. The proposal of twentyten is truly terrifying. The unknown. The unlikely. The year of my twenty’s. The past decade of my life has seen me attend three different schools, a University. Visit nine various countries, a habit I prey will continue in this new age. I've grown up, the world has changed. The next ten years are terrifying. The noughties was supposedly an age of peace and happiness, alas terrorism has continued. The world is not the liberal arena I hope and dream it could be. In so many ways the noughties was a decade for progress. In so many ways the noughties was a decade of hate, of oppression. Seventy years since the Second World War and the BNP are jabbering on about who-wants-to-know-what! There is not a need to fear the intelligent, just the cunning. There is no reason to be scared of the informed, rather the ignorant. And England is currently full of those.

2010 will be the year i can vote. And I will certainly be doing this. Women fought for me to have that right and I shall gratefully use it.

Other 'plans' (resolutions are never kept, this word may work miracles for my will power) include:

Continue to go to all of my lectures.

Actually pay for gym membership and go.

Make this a fashion blog apposed to a ramblings blog!

Do something good, maybe volunteer at a charity shop?

And learn to use my most prized possession, my Canon 40D 17 to 85mm lens (yay!)

Oh and start sewing more! Happy New Year world. I wish you all the best for the next 365 days. Make them worth your while!

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself, any direction you choose." Dr. Seuss